I have been reading this board for a time, but figured it was about time for me to step in. I am not sure what it is I am looking for, validation? Confirmation? Explanations?
My Best friend and the love of my life, my husband died suddenly this past December. It was a hard few days in the hospital with him, but I eventually had to make the decision that it was best to let him go.
Since that time, I have been waiting and wanting to get some sort of ADC from him, but wonder if I have been discounting the signs I have actually received.
Several events have happened since his passing.... from touching sensations (I felt a tugging on the back of my shirt the weekend after he left us), to the breaking of a candle sconce, to a couple of very vivid dreams about him, one where he told me it was hot in the room (I attribute that to his cremation happening) and wanting to get pancakes, to another dream of him telling me he couldnt stop what was happening.... to the biggest one that multiple people saw.
That one was during a televised football game of his favorite team where a shot of a fan was showed that looked exactly like him. Several people saw it... and thought the same thing.
But since that sighting.... there has been nothing. I guess I am looking for guidance and understanding. I am still so devastated and angry at his passing... am I blocking more communication? Is what I have experienced so far just coincidences or is he trying? Is my trying to rationalize what has been going on blocking him?
I think that the weekend of his memorial service he actually was here in the house, because it was filled with his kids and family. I think that weekend, he came and sat on the bed next me and held my hand.... but I also think it was me just wishing.
Is there a concrete way of knowing that they are here? That they are trying to reach you?
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