I think my Momaw and my boyfriend definitely made it possible for my husband and I to connect.
I kept a little picture of the Tai Mahal that said : “grief can build beautiful things” since 2012.
My first date with my boyfriend in 2015 was a trip to India. We ended up seeing the Tai Mahal. It felt like a wink from my boyfriend.
He also told me in a dream when I met the right man I’d find a huge feather. At one of the places we toured in Jaipur, India, I found the biggest feather I have ever seen. “Feathers” were our code word when we were together.
I think it’s probably natural to feel sad around the anniversary. My grief for my beloved friend Andy, who was honestly like the father I always wished I had, has compounded the grief.
I know Andy and my boyfriend (John) are at peace and I am comforted and happy for that. My saddest is only for myself as it makes me sad that another great person in my life has passed. I know grief is the price of love though, so I’m trying to be gentle with myself and not feel too selfish for grieving. |
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