It is wonderful your father was so open to these things. I don't know if it is just me, but it seems like when they first pass we don't hear much from them. I guess they are busy. I really thought this year around our wedding anniversary and birthdays that I would have received some from my husband, but no. (Last year I did) It is too bad we couldn't figure out how to hear from them more. It is a puzzle.
It seems like if we were feeling especially sad they would show up. Or maybe it is the opposite, they don't like to see us sad? I certainly wouldn't want to bum them out. I sometimes get the sense they are happy when we are. I know that it is extremely hard to be happy without them. I call it less sad. I know personally I can't be around negative or unhappy people or circumstances for too long. It really puts me in a tailspin and takes away any painful progress I have made in almost 3 years now. I know it sounds shallow but I do not like that dark cloud that descends when we are most vulnerable. It is very hard to shake. But we must stay optimistic, even when we feel all alone in a crowd of people.
It is so good to hear when others receive adc's. It gives us hope we may hear from our loved ones! |
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