|Linda...I am in a frenzy of needle pointing things for Christmas. Every year I say enough is enough, I need 2 trees to hang all this stuff on. My mom, before she died helped with some of it. She got all caught up in it. I can still see her tracing some of the patterns for me to cut out, attaching beads and bows to this and that ornament. Even tonight I am needle pointing snowflakes, a new pattern I found. Somehow I feel her smiling down at me, happy that I'm back to doing what I love to do. After her death I didn't want to so much as look at anything Christmas related. It's still hard but I pulled myself up from that gloomy pit and got on with it.
As for the card, it's becoming less of a worry. For some reason I've felt more peaceful in the last two days than I have in a while. What comes will come and I'll handle it either way. I pray she felt peace at the end, without hatred or bitterness. A friend sent a video to me once from an elder in her church that spoke of what we will see when we meet those that have gone on. This is just an excerpt. Here goes:
" One day our loved ones who have gone on will stand before us glorified and grand, breathtakingly perfect in body and in mind. What a thrilling moment that will be. We will not know who we are happier for, them or us, that they are fully perfect, free at last.''
And that's how I will picture my mom, and the aunt. And those lines will help me through whatever is to come.
I can share the video if anyone would like to see it. The topic of it is depression and I was certainly in the depths of that disease when she sent it to me. Although she is Morman and I am not, I will cherish this video from here on after. I watch it on a regular basis and it never fails to touch me deep in my soul
Much love to all, Peg