On 1/2/02, my husband of almost 13 years died. Of course, I am crushed, and if I didn't have 2 children, I would seriously be looking for ways to join him. Almost a year ago to the day, he had brain surgery and the past year he worked so hard to get better, he was left with stroke-like disabilities. But he tried so hard. It broke my heart to see how that surgery left him, compared to the once bull-like man he was. He knew it, too, and it hurt him deeply. He came down with cold-like symptoms which within 5 days and 2 hospital visits and one doctor visit they told me to take hime home, he had bronchitis. The last emergency room visit he coudlnt' breathe, his face was bluish and they sent him home, saying he was doing it to himself. Well, I just got him home and in the house and he looked at me, said "No", and died. The night before I had been getting these feelings, like someone actually pushing me out of the house, to bring him to the hospital again. It was almost midnight on 1/1 and I got dressed and woke him to tell him we were going to the hospital. He said he felt fine he would go in the morning, he just wanted to sleep. Ifeel like I am responsible for his death, if I had just made him go, we would have had a different doctor who would have kept him. His autopsy said he died of pneumonia. I am devastated. I read John Edwards books, and I am trying to get on his show, I need to know if he is OK. At his wake, I could have sworn I saw him standing there looking at me with that look of his that he gave me and I miss so much, and I thought for a second, "Oh, there's Frank", but then I realized he was gone and when I looked back, it was by friend's husband standing there. Every day is a major effort to get through, and I am starting to hate myself for not insisting more than I did that the hospital keep him. I argued with them, but they had made their decision, but I should have tried harder. I really feel like I killed my husband, and it is getting harder to deal with this. Is there anyone legitimate like John Edward who can help me? I don't have alot of money, so please no scams. thanks

Loved your web site.

i just bought the book on wednesday and today is friday and i'm almost done with it. i can relate to some of these stories having had an adc myself. the book is wonderful and i'm suggesting it to all my friends and family. will share my story with bill and judy about my dear sister i just lost 4 months ago.

I just finished reading "Hello from Heaven," and I thought it was a magnificent book! I've always believed that we can still remain in touch with our deceased family members. Each person's account was very touching. It's definately a real experience, and everyone was blessed to be able to say "I love you" one more time.

Hello Bill and Judy!! I happened to stumble upon this site and was truly impressed!! I just lost a very dear cousin to cancer December 19th and it's been so hard!! Your site has a lot to offer to those of us who are curious and also grieving still. Keep up the good work!! Kathleen Clark